You scolded me again this morning. I accidentally switch off the wireless modem last night and you got angry because i did that. I apologized. Then you said that you would have to wait at least 10min for your computer to connect to the internet. I told you that it would only take 3min, since i've switched it off and on myself before. You got pissed and asked me to stop argueing with you. I told you that i wasn't; i just wanted you to know that it wouldn't take as long as you thought it would, because 10min and 3min is quite a difference. Then you told me to stop being rude.

You really leave me lost for words. I don't know how i was being rude, i wasn't even argueing with you. It's so frustrating for me when you keep accusing me of doing so becausee i know, i know that i'm not doing so. What did i say that deserved a scolding? I don't get it, i was just telling you, informing you. I didn't even raise my voice. You're seriously too unreasonable.

I'm really, really frustrated with this. Totally ruined my day. Maybe it's best that i really shut up from now.

And i don't know why, but my right kneecap is hurting.

Asked you WHAT a certain event was about, you told me WHERE it was at. Thought you didn't hear what i was saying, so i asked again. And you told me WHEN it was at. So i asked again, since my question clearly wasn't answered. Then you got angry and told me to stop bringing you down by asking so many questions. Told you i was just asking the same question because you didn't really answer it.

You told me to stop being rude, that you were still processing the question. You told me that i don't understand that this is the way you act. Firstly, i definitely know how you act. You just think i don't know because how i react isn't the ideal reaction in your mind.
I knew you were processing the question, that's why i waited at least 10seconds before asking again.

I only kept asking the same question because i did not get the right answer. Is that so wrong? Is that being rude? I really don't see how it's rude.

You said you didn't like my tone of voice, but my tone was exactly like how i talk in normal conversations. I don't see how i was being rude. If i'm supposed to understand the way you act - which i do - then why can't you also understand the way i act? I'm not the kind to constantly ask the same question over and over again.

I hope you know that.

In your mind everyone has to understand that the way you act is, well, the way you act. So why can't it work the other way round? Why can't you understand that the way others act is the way they act? If you can't be changed, then what makes you think that others can be changed?

You say that i'm impatient. Seriously? Are you fucking me? I'm probably one of the most patient people around. I hardly get worked up, i hardly shout, unless my anger is really triggered. And i know that i'm definitely much more patient than you.

You keep blaming me for small things.

Like the other day you scolded me because you texted me but my phone was dead, so i didn't see the msg. You got pissed because you wanted me to take the food out from the fridge to thaw, but i didn't do it. So i apologized, many times actually. But it's not really my fault, i mean, you're the only person in nz who has my number, what were the chances of you texting me? Anyway, i apologized again, but you didn't hear me. You just kept nagging and scolding. And when i tried to reason myself out, you said i was being rude.

Just like that.

Fast forward to today. My phone was charged, half battery to be exact. And i kept it by my side all the time, because i didn't want to give you a reason to scold me again. And when you came home, BAM! You scolded me for not taking the food out again. I said that you didn't text me at all to tell me to do so. I mean seriously, i don't have telepathy or something, how would i know right? Then you said that i should know that there's food in the fridge to be thawed.

Firstly, wtf? Secondly, you didn't text me like you said you would! Thirdly, the fridge has so much food, how would i know which one to take out?

So i got scolded for not charging my phone, and i got scolded when my phone was charged. So what's the point of charging my phone, really. Either way i'll still get scolded.

Every time i talk i get this feeling that you're hearing me, but not listening to me. You know, in a place like NZ where i don't really have much friends or anyone that i know, it would be nice to know that there's at least someone here who's willing to listen to me. But i don't get that.

I don't.

Mum: ''How was your day in school?''

Sis: "I made a new friend. Her name is Fatimah.''

Mum: "Really? Malay?"

Sis: "Ya."

Mum: "Where is she from?"

Sis: "Errrr..... Malay....sia?"

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Me: "Eh.. See my hair spoiling sia."

Sis: "Never mind. You can always use mascaraaaaaa!"

Me: "...... Mascara is for your eyes you dumb shit."

Sis: -laughs for 5min-

Something's wrong with her.

Thank God for math class and the people in it who make life in school so much less lonelier.

You scolded me again this morning. I accidentally switch off the wireless modem last night and you got angry because i did that. I apologized. Then you said that you would have to wait at least 10min for your computer to connect to the internet. I told you that it would only take 3min, since i've switched it off and on myself before. You got pissed and asked me to stop argueing with you. I told you that i wasn't; i just wanted you to know that it wouldn't take as long as you thought it would, because 10min and 3min is quite a difference. Then you told me to stop being rude.

You really leave me lost for words. I don't know how i was being rude, i wasn't even argueing with you. It's so frustrating for me when you keep accusing me of doing so becausee i know, i know that i'm not doing so. What did i say that deserved a scolding? I don't get it, i was just telling you, informing you. I didn't even raise my voice. You're seriously too unreasonable.

I'm really, really frustrated with this. Totally ruined my day. Maybe it's best that i really shut up from now.

And i don't know why, but my right kneecap is hurting.

Asked you WHAT a certain event was about, you told me WHERE it was at. Thought you didn't hear what i was saying, so i asked again. And you told me WHEN it was at. So i asked again, since my question clearly wasn't answered. Then you got angry and told me to stop bringing you down by asking so many questions. Told you i was just asking the same question because you didn't really answer it.

You told me to stop being rude, that you were still processing the question. You told me that i don't understand that this is the way you act. Firstly, i definitely know how you act. You just think i don't know because how i react isn't the ideal reaction in your mind.
I knew you were processing the question, that's why i waited at least 10seconds before asking again.

I only kept asking the same question because i did not get the right answer. Is that so wrong? Is that being rude? I really don't see how it's rude.

You said you didn't like my tone of voice, but my tone was exactly like how i talk in normal conversations. I don't see how i was being rude. If i'm supposed to understand the way you act - which i do - then why can't you also understand the way i act? I'm not the kind to constantly ask the same question over and over again.

I hope you know that.

In your mind everyone has to understand that the way you act is, well, the way you act. So why can't it work the other way round? Why can't you understand that the way others act is the way they act? If you can't be changed, then what makes you think that others can be changed?

You say that i'm impatient. Seriously? Are you fucking me? I'm probably one of the most patient people around. I hardly get worked up, i hardly shout, unless my anger is really triggered. And i know that i'm definitely much more patient than you.

You keep blaming me for small things.

Like the other day you scolded me because you texted me but my phone was dead, so i didn't see the msg. You got pissed because you wanted me to take the food out from the fridge to thaw, but i didn't do it. So i apologized, many times actually. But it's not really my fault, i mean, you're the only person in nz who has my number, what were the chances of you texting me? Anyway, i apologized again, but you didn't hear me. You just kept nagging and scolding. And when i tried to reason myself out, you said i was being rude.

Just like that.

Fast forward to today. My phone was charged, half battery to be exact. And i kept it by my side all the time, because i didn't want to give you a reason to scold me again. And when you came home, BAM! You scolded me for not taking the food out again. I said that you didn't text me at all to tell me to do so. I mean seriously, i don't have telepathy or something, how would i know right? Then you said that i should know that there's food in the fridge to be thawed.

Firstly, wtf? Secondly, you didn't text me like you said you would! Thirdly, the fridge has so much food, how would i know which one to take out?

So i got scolded for not charging my phone, and i got scolded when my phone was charged. So what's the point of charging my phone, really. Either way i'll still get scolded.

Every time i talk i get this feeling that you're hearing me, but not listening to me. You know, in a place like NZ where i don't really have much friends or anyone that i know, it would be nice to know that there's at least someone here who's willing to listen to me. But i don't get that.

I don't.

Mum: ''How was your day in school?''

Sis: "I made a new friend. Her name is Fatimah.''

Mum: "Really? Malay?"

Sis: "Ya."

Mum: "Where is she from?"

Sis: "Errrr..... Malay....sia?"

-----------------

Me: "Eh.. See my hair spoiling sia."

Sis: "Never mind. You can always use mascaraaaaaa!"

Me: "...... Mascara is for your eyes you dumb shit."

Sis: -laughs for 5min-

Something's wrong with her.

Thank God for math class and the people in it who make life in school so much less lonelier.